Never take a seasonal job during the holidays.
Period.
Friday, November 19, 2010
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Lonely
Every so often, I get really sad. It's the kind of sad where I know I mustn't even speak or else I'll cry for hours.
My life with Robert is wonderful; I couldn't ask for a better, more kind and loving husband. Sometimes, though, I get so lonely because I feel like there's really no one else in my life. Although I get stressed and I always feel a little too stretched, I feel so happy when I'm home, when I can see all of my friends and family whenever I like. I miss the warmth of having so many people that love me all around. I miss the support of those people when I feel like I felt a few days ago. I know I can't move home, I would never be happy living there. Other than my family and friends, there's nothing there for me, and picking up everyone I love and dragging them around with me wherever I go just isn't an option, although wouldn't it be wonderful?
It could be that I don't have a job, and that sitting on my couch all day with no one to talk to and nothing to accomplish is just bringing me down. I feel like I have no priorities, no order, and no direction. I have no idea where my life is headed right now and I have conflicting ideas of where I want that to be. I have no motivation and no drive.
It doesn't help that we also don't have enough money to do anything save for buying groceries and paying our bills. The lack of job mentioned above is the reason being for that. I want to be able to buy my family and friends Christmas presents, but it's seeming less and less like that will be able to happen.
This entry isn't to whine or to try to gain sympathy from anyone; I only needed to write, to vent about how I feel.
I know that this feeling is only temporary and that in time I'll get back on my feet again and my crying will cease.
UPDATE:
I forgot to post some recent pictures. Here's Halloween.
My life with Robert is wonderful; I couldn't ask for a better, more kind and loving husband. Sometimes, though, I get so lonely because I feel like there's really no one else in my life. Although I get stressed and I always feel a little too stretched, I feel so happy when I'm home, when I can see all of my friends and family whenever I like. I miss the warmth of having so many people that love me all around. I miss the support of those people when I feel like I felt a few days ago. I know I can't move home, I would never be happy living there. Other than my family and friends, there's nothing there for me, and picking up everyone I love and dragging them around with me wherever I go just isn't an option, although wouldn't it be wonderful?
It could be that I don't have a job, and that sitting on my couch all day with no one to talk to and nothing to accomplish is just bringing me down. I feel like I have no priorities, no order, and no direction. I have no idea where my life is headed right now and I have conflicting ideas of where I want that to be. I have no motivation and no drive.
It doesn't help that we also don't have enough money to do anything save for buying groceries and paying our bills. The lack of job mentioned above is the reason being for that. I want to be able to buy my family and friends Christmas presents, but it's seeming less and less like that will be able to happen.
This entry isn't to whine or to try to gain sympathy from anyone; I only needed to write, to vent about how I feel.
I know that this feeling is only temporary and that in time I'll get back on my feet again and my crying will cease.
UPDATE:
I forgot to post some recent pictures. Here's Halloween.
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